Who am I? To most people I am Sarah Newing….Wife, mum of 3, Ultra runner, confident, funny and outgoing. That’s what I show to people around me. But that’s not me. I put on a positive front around people when really I’m Sarah Newing…. OCD sufferer, anxiety sufferer, on medication for depression, and sufferer of the occasional panic attack.
Since the age of 10 the OCD and anxiety started, and although over the years I’ve had good days and bad days, nothing has ever fully helped me understand how to deal with the issues.
I’ve had counselling in my 20s before finally giving in to medication in my 30s and then finding running 5 years ago. All of which I believed helped me at the time, but really they just masked how I was really feeling, and swept the problem further under the carpet.
It was while I was out running The Classic Quarter 44 mile Coastal Path challenge in June 2016 that Andrew ran past me and introduced himself. We have a mutual friend and he recognised me from a picture he’d seen.
After the race we became friends on ‘Face book’ and I saw Andrews Ultra Mind Coaching page. I’m not even sure what made me contact him, but I was feeling really low at the time, I’d just been signed off work for a week with anxiety, and I didn’t know which way to turn anymore. I didn’t want to take more medication to dull the anxiety, I wanted to confront it. Messaging Andrew was the first step. I arranged to meet him the following week and the rest is history.
Within the space of 6 weeks I am becoming a different person. Andrew has helped me understand my anxiety and how to deal with it. For the first time I have opened up to people and told them who I really am, and their response has been amazing. Making myself vulnerable, and letting people in, was definitely the first step to my recovery. People don’t think I’m crazy they actually have a lot more respect for me.
I continue to see Andrew on a weekly basis. We chat and run and I definitely laugh a lot more now. I believe things happen for a reason, and I was meant to meet Andrew that day, ours paths crossed for a reason, and with his help I have made more progress in the past 6 weeks than I have in the last 20 years. I know that I will have bad days, but I am learning how to cope with them now. Andrew is always there to support and advise me day or night. Life feels good again, and I can’t thank him enough for all his help.